This post might have curse words or vulgar comments/statements. So if you don’t like it or might be offended then don’t read it also unless you have a useful comment feel free to leave it, however if you have a comment like watch your language or that Im wrong for the way I feel keep it to yourself I don’t care, will not comment back and will just delete it……….. So here it goes.
Have determined Im tired of being ran over for being nice. I was raised to respect people and to treat people, even total strangers, with kindness. Well not any more. I try to be nice & help ALWAYS and am always taken advantage of. Everyone who knows me as Robin the push over can now say hello to Robin I dont give fuck. I realized that most people don’t care about others they only care about themselves so I have decided not to care about them. People always think yeah Robin won’t care don’t bother asking or yeah Robin wont mind if we cancel even though she might have been looking forward to anything that didn’t involve a conversation with a 4 year old age limit.
I feel I only have a few REAL friends. Friends who understand a busy life. Friends who understand what it is to struggle and not live off the government not because they need it but because they can’t manage to get off their ass and get a job. And I know people say well you don’t have a job (and you know who you are) but I consider 24/7 taking care of my children, cooking, cleaning and laundry a job. Just because I don’t get paid for it doesn’t mean I don’t work. My husband works his ass off to provide for us. A real friend calls you to talk or to just check on you not because they want or need something. When I say need something I mean those of you can’t bother to pick up a damn phone and say hey but the second you need a ride or somewhere to live then you can call. Well FUCK YOU. My real friends know who they are.
I don’t get to talk to people about my problems. I probably need some kind of therapy because my self therapy is holding it in and holding it in until i blow up at my poor husband and let it all out and then I am good for a while. When people are mean or do things just cause I might not show it or stand up for myself does not mean it doesn’t hurt or I don’t care. Just means I am not willing to give you the satisfaction of knowing it hurts.
So back to my main point. I will no longer let people push me over or bite my tongue because I am afraid of hurting someones feelings. The new new me will stand up for myself the new me will let you know that you can go to hell. Might not be the best approach but me being polite and a push over isn’t working so I will try this for a while. I wish I was closer to my friends people who care just to have someone to talk to when I’m down. For now I will use my own therapy.
⋆ℛobin ℬowers